2016. Let’s rock this shit. Who has goals? I have a few goals.

I gotta get healthy. For my sanity, my body, and my wardrobe. But I’m doing this by:

  • eating more vegetables
  • drinking lots of water
  • sleeping more sensibly (i.e. not more, just earlier on week nights etc)
  • yoga every damn day
  • less sugar

(rather than obsessing or doing crazy crash dieting crap)



I gotta write more.  So this means:

  • scheduled music time
  • gigs!



Other goals:

  • declutter
  • sort the house for sale in the summer
  • work on my stress levels (either through changing jobs or finding time to let it go – more meditation maybe?)
  • more spiritual time for me
  • more Scotland travel, also maybe a few more European jaunts


You got goals? Let’s kick ass.






Not doing the resolutions thing, because well, they always fail.  Last year’s “my amazing life” post was fun and I’ve managed to stick to most of it. To put it in writing for the year:

The Awesomeness that is 2012 means:

– Getting up earlier, having breakfast/coffee, getting to work earlier. Yes, this means going to bed earlier! I’m not 21 anymore!
– Planning my wardrobe better and taking more care with my hair.
– Using my new beautiful jewellery box to keep everything together..
– …and buying some jewellery!
– Making more effort to get out and into Edinburgh.
– Making more effort to use Soundcloud to record drafts and clips for the music site.
– Positivity. Not letting old regrets linger. Letting go.
– More me time to read, reflect and study Torah.
– Working out more and being more conscious of what I eat and drink.
– Writing and updating this blog more!  If depression stops me writing, then well, I need to write about my depression.
– Continuing to be supportive and loving of my man, family and friends. People are so important.

I hope you had an awesome start to 2012, everyone. I’ll post our top film lists for 2011 tomorrow when Dave is home from football.

Too many posts already!




Well it’s here! the end of the world is nigh, bitches. Well not really. I think maybe the Mayans couldn’t fit much past 23rd December, 2012, on their charts, and thought, “That’s really really far away. Go with that.”

I do like the X Files tie-in to the date, however, so we shall see. We may be invaded yet.

Like it was for many others, 2011 was not a great year for me/us. Financially, emotionally, etc, it was hard. We both lost our jobs last year, and while I found another, I haven’t really found it fulfilling or challenging in the slightest. There is no way I was/am going to genuinely complain, as it’s a freaking job, and so many are without one. But. Hey.

I have applied for an exciting role that I would actually enjoy going into the office for, so fingers crossed.   Dave is of course in the Police recruitment process, and we hear about that on the 12th. Which I’m kinda shitting myself about. It should be a positive day, and he will be an excellent cop, but if he doesn’t get it, then.. well, shit. I don’t know what we’ll do from there. But at least he can explore permanent job options.

And I’d love to say that our lives are dependant on other factors, but well, our lives are kinda in limbo on this one thing. So if he gets in, and/or I get my role (his would be enough), everything changes. Everything. And while it’s mainly to do with money (we can afford to travel and live a little easier, and we can go home every now and then), more importantly, the biggest change would be that we stay here. Which is scary and exciting all at once. I’ve never been 100% sold on living in Edinburgh long-term, but for this? and for him? in a heartbeat. And if it means we have a better life and a better future, then I am willing to do it. He’s my family now.

It’s scary thinking that by then I will have spent more than half of my twenties living in Scotland.

So here’s hoping. Plan B may be right around the corner. But if things come through for us, then well. 2012 might just be a good year.

It’s gonna be a happy new year..


Last night at rehearsals for RENT, we went over Happy New Year A & B (as I am now also playing Mrs Cohen) and now that line is stuck in my head.

And hell, it’s going to be a happy one!
I had all these plans for posts I was going to write before this one (and many drafts saved), but this is in my head to write now, so it’s going to come out today. Here is my new plan for..
My fabulous new life

Oh yes, ladies and gents. I’ve decided 2011 is going to be about sparkles, rainbows, happy times and being more carefree. I’m going to emulate Audrey Hepburn and all that.
* Award for Ridiculous/obvious break-through of the year so far: my hobbies keep my depression at a much more manageable level. (I always ponder whether manageable or managable is more correct when I type it. I know you use the e, but it looks like manag-e-able. Anyhoo, I digress). Hobbies: I return to ballet (moved up a class) tonight, went back to rehearsals last night after my holiday, go back to dressmaking on Monday, and still of course love photography and blogging, even if I neglect them (and need a new camera!).
* One month until our move, so I’m going to start packing, organising, and tossing crap out. The new place is going to give us more space to breathe, a garden, an area for our PC/piano, and sure, plenty of new bills. But I don’t care. I’m so looking forward to the quiet!
* My new haircut rules. Oh yes it does.
* We’ve had this new regime so far of going to bed early and getting up early (because of jetlag) and I have actually felt good and normal and able to cope in the mornings and better at work and everything. Ugh! I’ve been trying to do this for years, and finally been forced into it, and now I’m thinking I’m such a fool for doing it wrong for so long (although I still think Sarah-Rose is insane for her morning regime). Which leads me to..
* I think I might get a coffeemaker for the new place. Yay caffeine before work in the morning! (cue Dave rolling his eyes).
* I’m going to plan what I wear for work a bit better, and actually use my StyleBook app for this purpose. Although, more separates for work are required! Right now it’s dress or bust, or trousers and a small selection of tops, or purple skirt with said small selection of tops. Thank God for H&M and their cheap selections, which I’ll be buying on account over the next month or so.
* My hair is also super easy to style, as long as dry it after washing. I’ll need more regular cuts, though.
* My diet so far has been going well over the last month, thanks to the flu/lurgi ruining my appetite for weeks. I have no idea what I currently weigh, but I’ll be back on the WiiFit tonight. I’ve said this every year for a long time, but I really really actually want to get fighting fit this year. I feel better when I have exercise in my life, and this year it’ll be Pilates, WiiFit, maybe running again (as I do enjoy it once I’m in a rhythm), and ballet. If I want to be hot for a few years before I ruin, er, change my body with babies, now is the time to do it. And hell, we’re planning…
* Holidays! Yay! My folks are apparently donating to our trip fund (to thank us for using up so much holiday and money to come out to them in December) and I’m hoping to go to Rome for my birthday. And then we are due to go to Barcelona at the end of July for Dave’s cousin’s wedding. Might be a few days up north of Barcelona, then a few days in the city. Other than that, we’ll just wait and see.
I hope all you lovely people are well and happy, and I’ll be posting some photos soon. I did start Project 365 again for 2011, and will be updating Flickr as well. Sadly, I’ve been a bit obsessed with Instagram for iPhone, so a lot of my shots for the beginning of the year were on that, rather than my camera, but I’ll be dusting off the camera and carrying it around with me more this year.
It’ll be my own little happiness project, 2011. You’re going to hate me for my positivity. And hopefully lots of lame puns that’ll make Dave give me that face.
(Can’t wait to read this next January and scoff at my optimism! Kat, you are a dork!)

Strike up the band


I’m trying to remember when I began to feel everything so acutely.

Maybe I’ve always been this way, but in the past few years it seems to have taken a leap; a leap of emotional heights.

In the past two to three years I have been loved and broken, very low and very high, very me and very someone else. Someone new seems to be coming through: someone stronger yet still very vulnerable. Some days I feel indestructible, other days like a house of cards.

It’s all a learning curve, it’s growing up, it’s excellent song inspiration. And it’s a new year!

New Years’ Resolutions:

1. Be healthy and fit – get a gym membership before April.

2. To live each day as it comes.

3. Devote at least 5 hours a week to songwriting.

4. Do as many gigs as I can and as much practice as I can.

5. Appreciate and look after me.

6. Take more risks.

Let’s have an awesome one. Let’s make 2007 a memorable year, worth a mention in the books.

Cats and Kats.


What you would hear if you were here right now:

Kat: Shadow. Shadow. SHADOW. SHADOW. SHADOW! Get AWAY. No. Get. Gah. Get away! Away from the laptop. AWAY. Okay. Stop dribbling on my laptop. Please. Yes. I know. Meow. Yes. Where’s your brother?

Since we moved, the two cats have adjusted in different ways. Shadow’s cool. She’s all good, man. She knows where she lives. She wants you just to chill, dude.
Mutley, the old white/tabby cat, escaped shortly after we moved in, and after panicking and flyer drops, he sauntered on home 2 days later. He then did it again, after we repeated that entire process. He’s oh so nonchalant about his little adventures.

And he’s done it again. Only this time, I’m the only one at the house, and I’m refusing to panic. Or tell my family. (Don’t tell them.)

I am convinced he will return on his own, yet again. And he has 3 days to do it, so hopefully he won’t be long. Or he won’t exact revenge for cooping him up for a week. I was oh so careful with what area of the house he was in with what windows were open, and I was very careful with visitors and when I cleaned out the litter tray, etc. But. In cooking dinner tonight I really needed the window behind the stove open to vent (as it’s not all working yet), and thought that he wouldn’t be likely to escape that way, as the stove was hot on all surfaces. At the time. But yeah, these things cool, and when I searched around tonight, wondering how the hell he was out (as usually he’s upstairs with me by now), I saw the window. D’oh. I’ll keep you updated.

On Kats- well, just the one.. I am doing okay! 2007! Yeah! Is that enough enthusiasm? There is really very little happening right now. Tim came back for a short visit, so that was great, despite him being one of the most frustratingly great people I know. I am still unemployed, I am still writing tons of songs, I am still sleeping at random times and feeling pretty lazy in general. I will get a job! I’ll just.. take my time. You know. Mooch a little more.

(I’m kidding. I hate it.)

But the plan right now is to keep the house nice, unpack, read the job section, see friends. I am trying not to stress about it, at least for this week. My next card payments are due at the end of the month, and I’ll be selling CDs and DVD boxsets to cover one card, and relying on some holiday cash/goodwill of my father to pay the other. I’m out of contacts and most toiletries, but my mother is good that way. All I am covering right now is my dinner at night and making sure I have a little fun with friends every now and then.

I made a decision mid December, while I was on a long drive back from Martinborough in the darkness. I decided that 2007 is the year for new beginnings. For friendship and fun. For music. For writing. For playing and singing and laughing.

For me.