Always start a post with a selfie.

Always start a post with a selfie.


Reading: I’m still on Game of Thrones – eternally. I’ve lost track of what’s actually happening, but I’m getting it back. I’m also trying to catch up on my RSS feeds, and discovering new blogs all the time. I still love reading blogs and following along with peoples’ lives and families. Reminds me that I need to write more, as always!


Dave and a ridiculous cushion.

Dave and a ridiculous cushion.


Thinking about: Work and how I feel about it lately. What I want out of it, what I want to do, how I want to progress. Deep thoughts, dudes!  In short, I’m just not feeling what I’m doing just now, and I’m not sure how to move on or improve it. I have a whole post in me about this, but I better keep it brief, really.  Let’s just say that I don’t like who I am when I do this, and that’s not a good thing. I’m also always thinking about this dude above. I mean, seriously. He’s so cute.

Listening: I recently changed mobile providers and now have unlimited data, and this means that I’m finally able to stream all of my tunes using iTunes Match (which I’ve had for a while, but now can finally use to its full potential!) – it’s a magical thing when you can Shuffle All and get everything from Musicals to French rap, Taylor Swift to Meatloaf. Surreal yet fun. I’m still really into the Pierces, who I’ve now seen twice, and I’m not sure I’ll ever stop listening to Sara Bareilles’ album The Blessed Unrest.  It just speaks to me.


Winter is coming.

Winter is coming.


Watching:  The leaves change, and the light change and the days bleed into each other. It’s scary how fast this year has gone and is going, and how we’ll soon be living in this darkness again for almost 18 hours a day.  It’s strange but comforting in its own way.  And in these longer nights, we’ll be inside more, which means more TV and more couch time – we’ve been rewatching The West Wing again, which has been great.

Trying:  To take stock of life where I can, to appreciate moments when I have them, to keep in touch with people, to grow a little bit every day. And to work fitness back into my life. It’s a struggle, kids.


Two cuties on a couch.

Two cuties on a couch.


Loving:  This man, who puts up with my shit and lets me pause TV shows while he explains what I missed (because I was on my phone or asleep), who’ll play PS3 games I am really keen on but too scared to play, so I can watch (though he enjoys them too!) and does all of the washing because I am a slacker, and is just generally the best. As we get closer to our wedding day, I get more sentimental and soppy about it, cause I am a huge sap and I can’t wait to be his wife.


iPhone 6 brag selfie.

iPhone 6 brag selfie.


Wedding and stuff:  My veil arrived last Monday, and I got to try it on Saturday night with the dress, because, y’know, not all “ivory” stuff is the same, and also who am I kidding, I don’t need an excuse to put on my wedding dress. It still doesn’t fit, but I’m working on it (it hasn’t got far to go to zip up). It was a dreamy moment, standing there with the dress and the veil and feeling very bridal. I also sat on the bed for a few minutes and a got a bit weepy and then noticed you could see my feet when I sit, so hurray, maybe my pretty shoes (that I have not yet purchased) will be seen after all.

I also, as planned, got myself the new iPhone 6, as I am subtly showing off above, and it has been a total pleasure. Because of this, I put myself on financial lockdown until the end of the year, unless it’s for the wedding or clothing on my H&M account (which is quite limiting). And of course holiday gifts. One of the purchases I made before I said/decided this was of 2 dresses from Etsy that arrived on Monday and are very sweet, here’s the top of the navy one:


Navy dress with lace and a bt of upper boob.

Navy dress with lace and a bt of upper boob.


I also got it in mustard yellow (which has white dotted lace at the top), so I’ll instagram that when I wear it, of course.

I hope y’all are doing well! I can’t believe it’ll be October soon.




6 years ago today.



6 years ago today I went for a drink with a man I was just starting to know.  He had floppy hair and a lot of 90s t-shirts, baggy jeans and an inexplicable love for cricket.



He has become the most important person in my day, the best part of my life. He is my support, my comfort, my home. He makes me laugh when I really don’t think I can, stops me crying when I feel like I can’t stop. He stands behind my decisions, laughs at my mistakes, teases me relentlessly.



He loves me for me. Pushes me when I need to be pushed, listens when I just want to rant.



He is my best friend in this world, and I can’t imagine being without him.



I am so proud of his accomplishments and of the life we are building together. I can’t wait to be his wife.








Ah, a new year.  The tree and decorations are down, the lights are being switched off, and winter encloses us in a dark, depressing blanket.  I will do my best not to let it get me down.



2013 was a very mixed year.  I have seen many people on Twitter, blogs, Facebook and the like, talk about what an awful year it was for them. Luckily for me, it wasn’t as bad as previous years, especially now that we are more financially secure, and in the last 3 months of the year many good things have happened.



Firstly, let me say before I wrap up the year, on Christmas Eve, we got engaged. He wrapped the ring box up in a larger jewellery box, came downstairs while I was cleaning up, and asked if I wanted to open a present.  He wasn’t due to be with us on Christmas Day, as he had a shift, so I half-assumed it was just him being sweet, and half started to think it might be a ring.




And it was! My mother’s ring.  I can tell long tales of how I have stared at this ring in my mother’s jewellery box for over 20 years, so the significance of it is great. He awkwardly wedged himself between the coffee table and the couch attempting to take a knee, but only got halfway down before I said yes.


Xmas Day 2013


The rest of Christmas was very low-key.  D joined us at 3:30pm after he wrapped up his work for the day, and we had great fun with family.  I have spent many moments since then staring at my ring and smiling.


Us in 2008

Us in 2012


I can’t wait to be Mrs Lawrie.  After 6 years, we’ve come a long way, baby.







Coming up next: thoughts on 2013/photos, Film round-up!

30 memories, 5 years


my lovely


1.  Meeting him on the steps of Wellywood House, baubles hanging from his ears, tinsel around his neck.  I was swearing madly at Andy while wearing a pretty pink dress.

2.  Falling asleep on his shoulder later that night/early the next morning.


before I made him cut his hair!


3.  Seeing him again a month later and meeting for drinks with Andy.  Kissing him and seeing him smile.  Asking him to be patient while I sorted out my feelings for another, and him just… agreeing.  [Photo above from that very night! Lookit that floppy hair!]

4.  Our first dinner date at an Italian restaurant where I talked incessantly and he nodded patiently.



5.  Saying we loved each other on the balcony at Molly Malone’s on St. Patrick’s Day.  Yes.  We probably had this paint on our face at the time.



6.  Meeting my family for the first time at Easter lunch.



7.  Sitting up at Mt. Victoria lookout talking about what we would do after he left.



8.  Months of long-distance Skyping and falling asleep together (or halfway through talking, such as the above!).



9.  Finally seeing him again in September 2008, after 4.5 months apart.  We met at Heathrow, after I went completely the wrong way at the airport!  Spending time in London together…



10.  Meeting friends in London together.




11.  My first visit to Scotland/meeting his family.


Dave at Urquhart Castle

12.  Travels to Inverness and cruising on Loch Ness.



13. Saying goodbye again but planning to move.

14. “How is it stealing a kiss when they all belong to you anyway?”


Visa stuff

15. Moving in with Mum and Dad while saving and preparing for my visa.



16.  Receiving my visa super early and booking flights!  [See geeky video above, if it works…]


Our first dinner together


17. After 6 months apart, arriving a day early to surprise him and being collected by Ann.  I’ll never forget Dave’s face as he came in the door from work to find me on the couch!



18.  Finding our first (super tiny) home together!

19.  Waking up every day together.



20.  Travelling to Canada for Will and Megan’s wedding and then spending time in Seattle together.



21.  My first ever super snowy, white winter and Christmas.



22.  Permanent job for me, contract for D…



23.  Home to New Zealand for my brother’s wedding.



24.  Losing our prospective jobs but supporting each other; toughing it out.



25.  Moving into our 2nd (and current) home together.

26.  Spending all of our nights at the movies, as that’s all we can afford.



27.  Our first Europe trip to Barcelona together [gratefully subsidised by Dave’s mother].



28.  Getting the car and an even more mobile life!



29.  Dave is officially sworn in as a Constable.



30.   And our life of shift patterns/sleeping/spending lots of evenings and mornings just cosied up together begins.

Happy 5th Anniversary, baby.  Here’s to many more years.




I think of you in the morning because I wake up and wonder where you are.

I think of you on my way to work as I pass Caledonia Street.

I think of you at work as I check the loadings for my flights over.

I think of you on my break as I hope for you to call me.

I think of you after work as I drive past Caledonia Street.

I think of you at night when my friends are going out with their partners, when I see people holding hands.

I think of you as I go to sleep, wondering where you are.