2016. Let’s rock this shit. Who has goals? I have a few goals.

I gotta get healthy. For my sanity, my body, and my wardrobe. But I’m doing this by:

  • eating more vegetables
  • drinking lots of water
  • sleeping more sensibly (i.e. not more, just earlier on week nights etc)
  • yoga every damn day
  • less sugar

(rather than obsessing or doing crazy crash dieting crap)



I gotta write more.  So this means:

  • scheduled music time
  • gigs!



Other goals:

  • declutter
  • sort the house for sale in the summer
  • work on my stress levels (either through changing jobs or finding time to let it go – more meditation maybe?)
  • more spiritual time for me
  • more Scotland travel, also maybe a few more European jaunts


You got goals? Let’s kick ass.




Just now



We’ve had a re-design! (why do blogs always say ‘we’? it’s just me. Hello! I’ve had a re-design). If you’re seeing this in a reader, click the page for once and have a look-see.

Otherwise, here is life for me just now, inspired by Sydney’s lovely post from September

Making:  a ridiculous amount of mulled things for our housewarming. Last night I made mulled cider, mulled juice and bought mulled wine…
Cooking: I’ve been doing lots of the cooking lately! Curries and stir fries and fish with wedges and very basic things. We loved having a few HelloFresh boxes but it may be January before we can afford one again.
Drinking:  I’m weirdly-obsessed with drinking tonic water. Dave hates it but I love the taste on its own, especially with some lime.
Reading: Last book I finished was Meta by Tom Reynolds, which is a good wee sci-fi and a debut novel from one of my my favourite podcasters.
Wanting: Many things, mainly for the house. At the moment, I just want tidiness over material things.
Looking: Very tired, I imagine. It’s been a long week.
Playing: A lot of bad MTV on my TiVo.
Wasting: Some food – I had to throw out some stuff in the fridge I hadn’t noticed until last night… because I was too short to see it!
Sewing: Nothing, my machine is still in storage.
Wishing: For a long sleep and a lottery win.
Enjoying: Rehearsals for Brigadoon – it’s coming along really well.
Waiting: out the year – 2014 is hopefully going to be a great one.
Liking: The crisp weather.
Wondering: when it’s going to snow.
Loving: my Dave and our new home.
there are no huge expenses in December – we’re tapped out with everything going on!
Marveling: at everything that has happened this year.
Needing: sleep, more allergy pills, a few days off.
Smelling: a lot of the lovely candle my colleagues bought us – it’s burned every night since we got it.
Wearing: comfy, casual H&M favourites – skinny jeans, slouchy baseball tee covered in stars, boots.
Following: the many thanksgiving posts on instagram and facebook – looks like everyone had a good one. And how neat that it falls on Hanukkah. Gobble Tov!
Noticing: that finding loyal people can sometimes be tough.
Knowing: that there are great things in store for me and D.
Thinking: about the miracle of Hanukkah.
Bookmarking: lots of winter recipes.
Opening: my eyes a little wider.
Giggling: at Friends on Comedy Central for the billionth time.
Feeling: thankful, tired, accomplished, happy.






Twenty-Five Things


While I unpack my very cluttered new home and truly settle into suburban life, here’s a fun wee post for you.  And the amusing part is that I wrote this, and then I saw all of the “random facts” Facebook posts going up (and have recently posted my own) but I still feel like posting it.  It’s a little bit more “in depth” than a FB list.



Twenty-Five Random Facts About Me

1.  Despite my small stature, everything on me grows super fast – nails, hair, eyelashes! If I had a specific hairstyle to maintain I’d probably need to cut it every 3 weeks, and at the moment, although my John Freida hairdye lasts until regrowth (rather than other brands that fade quicker than my hair can grow!) I probably need to dye it every 3 weeks as well. I stretch it til 4 for time/financial reasons.

2.  I have my mother’s green eyes and my father’s dark blonde hair (naturally, of course it doesn’t look like that nowadays!)

3.  I think my greatest pet peeve is hypocrisy. I know we’re all guilty of it at times, but it drives me crazy.  This also applies to when friends won’t do for you what you have done/will do for them.

4.  I’m pretty blind. I’m -9.75 or something in one eye, and similar in the other, with an astigmatism. I’m amazed my eyes haven’t dropped out of my face yet.

5.  My main fears are the dark, enclosed spaces and crowds. I often get panic attacks in crowds, or if I am in a small space and can only inhale warm/hot air, or if I am in a room where I cannot see/do not know how to locate an exit.  Oh and the dentist. Not a “it-makes-me-so-nervous-OMG” thing, but a genuine phobia – I had a few traumatic experiences as a child and haven’t been in several years.



6.  I love planning, spreadsheets, systems, schedules, countdowns, lists, daily challenges, etc.  I don’t always follow through with them all but I love the idea/planning aspect of it all.  Despite how messy my life gets, I crave order.

7.  Due to having many, many US-based friends when I was a teenager and my many visits to/living briefly in the States, I have quite a bit of American knowledge – geography, culture et al.  America just makes sense to me, as messed up as it is sometimes, and if I could have picked another country to naturally adopt as my own, I’d probably have picked it.  I know my way around NYC and San Francisco and a few small east coast towns, and I’d probably be a New Yorker if I had the chance. Though I’d probably prefer to live in one of the boroughs these days.

8.  Scotland has my heart, though. I never thought I’d love it so much and I feel such a connection to this place. I’m probably one of the only people I can think of with a great love for bagpipes. Sorry!

9.  Despite appearing outgoing and exuberant, I am quite introverted: I require a lot of alone time/quiet time to recharge, I hate people pushing themselves into my space, and especially at the office, love to just be left alone to get on with my work.  I’m also not great with new people – I never know what to say and take ages to let go of my natural social anxiety.  I’ve become more introverted as I’ve gotten older.

10.  I’ve never really got coffee. I enjoy a cup with milk/cream and sugar, but I can’t get enthused about black coffee, particular types of coffee, different ways of brewing coffee.  I was always quite happy with filter coffee in the US, and I drink instant most days. Shock, horror! I also can’t have caffeine after 3pm or I won’t sleep, and if I have too many a day, with my low blood pressure my heart will beat itself silly.  I do love a cup of decaf at night, though.



11.  I trained in classical/operatic voice for many years, and used to be a coloratura.  I could sing those squeaky-up-there notes like Mariah Carey. As you age your vocal cords aren’t as co-operative with the high notes, so I stick to a more standard soprano range these days.  I think with a great deal of rehearsal, I could do it again, and it’s cool to know I had a unique skill, but it’s no longer really necessary for my repertoire.  Fiona in Brigadoon has some high pieces, though!

12.  I could care less what I eat most of the time. I have a bit of a sweet tooth, and love my diet coke, but I’m not hugely fussed on new recipes or finding things to cook. I eat to live… I definitely don’t live to eat!

13.  I need to know how things work. It’s all good telling me that the procedure is to do something a certain way, but I want to know why and how it affects everything else, and if I can improve it, I will.  I think I’d seriously go into IT if there wasn’t such a cost/time issue involved in studying for it.

14.  I also think I’d be a good teacher.  I love training/teaching, and never get the opportunity to use the skill – again, I’d need to train and live as a student for the required time, and at this stage in life, I’m sadly not up for it.  Maybe later, you never know.

15.  I love solving problems.  I think every problem has a solution and I’ll do my best to find it.  This is a flaw in my personal life, as I sometimes forget just to listen and try to fix the issue instead.  I always have the best of intentions, though!



16.  I care a bit much about people.  I worry far too much about the future.  I get hurt a lot by my own disappointment.

17.  I am kinda known for my obsessive love of turquoise. And squirrels. Now everyone gives me turquoise/squirrel-related presents. I’m fine with it.

18.  My middle name is Anne.

19.  I believe in God.  (I also don’t believe in censoring his name and typing G-d, which is an odd habit adopted by the Orthodox Jewry etc as a way of not writing down His name – if it’s not God’s “real” name, there’s no need to censor it…)

20.  I love driving. I love just going through the motions of it. I find taking a long drive fun and love having control of a car.  I also seem to have a strange knack for parallel parking.



21.  I’ve had… 7 or 8 boyfriends in my 16 years of dating.  My first oh my stars I might die teenage dramatic crush was on my dear friend Chris. Oh the crush I had. It was such cute teen confusion. Now that seems super weird – I love him in a totally different way.  My first true time being in actual love was with my highschool boyfriend, now friend, Tim.  My easiest, simplest, most natural love is Dave.  After nearly 6 years together I still see people in the supermarket that I think might be him and my heart skips a beat with excitement to see him. Seriously. So sickening.

22.  You know that saying, “It’s just like riding a bike”? – Yeah. I’m hopeless at riding a bike. And terrified of sharing the road with cars.  Car for me, thanks!

23.  I have followed a form of kosher eating for about 10 years now, and follow it mainly out of sentimentality/habit than anything now.  Even my Rabbi can’t bring himself to eat pork, but doesn’t feel there are any modern reasons to stick to it.  But when you do something for so long, or in this case, don’t do something for so long, it’s hard to break it. I have had the occasional mixed-meat sausage but the pork aversion is stubborn, though…

24.  I am very logical and find it very frustrating reconciling my logical/creative sides.  It also baffles me when others are illogical and my office appears to be full of them…

25.  I am totally fine with getting older. I do however dream of milestones yet to come.



Coming up:  New house, a tea review/giveaway and more…





10 Things that make me happy today

1. I am a lot happier now my work hours have changed and I’m driving!
2. My dishwashing liquid smells like apples.
3. I have new episodes of my favourite tacky tv shows to watch tonight.
4. I am making the most amazing omelette thing.
5. My man is adorable and all dancey with me today. He also brought me rocky road.
6. I get my iPad in 10 days! Or maybe sooner. We’ll see!
7. Our garden is blooming.
8.  This is my only full work week until the week starting 14th May!
9. In just over 2 weeks my bestie from home and her hubs will be in. my. house.
10. I am in the goofiest mood possible.

20 Things I Love About Scotland



1. The national flower is a thistle. It’s a weed, people. But like the Scots, it’s pretty and soft yet prickly and unique all at once.

2. The slang. “No danger” is a perfectly acceptable replacement for “no way”. Babies are bairns and weans, everything has “proper” or “pure” before it, and I am a lass, a hen, a quine (my current favourite).

3. Daffodils grow wild in spring, snow drops appear before the frost is gone, the blossoms are bright pink and fluffy.

4. Edinburgh is full of little nooks and crannies and side-streets of wonders, and I haven’t really discovered so much of it yet.

5. Every man over 60 with a cheeky smile and crinkly eyes reminds me of my grandfather.

6. It’s perfectly acceptable to wear a kilt to any special (or not so special, there are “casual kilts”) occasion.

7. When you’re sick you drink whisky with green ginger wine and float around on the fumes.

8. The acoustic music scene is supportive and active and somewhat glorious, and I have played many a venue, with more to come.

9. No one misunderstands or asks me to repeat my surname.

10. Any day over 20 degrees is celebrated and lauded as a “heatwave”, and we all eat icecream and throw our summer shorts on.

11. Because of the massive amount of importing, avocados are available and ripe all year around.

12. Primark, H&M, ASOS and Amazon UK.

13. Edinburgh’s Liberal Jewish Community has a lovely mix of personalities and nationalities and have welcomed me with an amazing warmth of spirit.

14. We love our Unlimited movie cards, which we abuse to the highest degree, and see a bunch of films that aren’t really worthy of our attendance. And Cineworld has Ben & Jerry’s.

15. I finally understand 99% of accents (they vary!) so am much happier answering the phone.

16. It looks a lot like home. Scotland is incredibly green, with beautiful mountain ranges, rivers and has large variety in its weather. Edinburgh being hilly is also somewhat comforting, coming from a hilly part of the world!

17. And yes that weather. I do kinda love it when the haar settles in and you can barely see the end of the street, or the canal freezes over, or the wind stops just for one sunny day, and you think “Gosh, this is alright.”

18. Despite not knowing anyone who actually speaks it (apart from primary teacher friends who know colours and songs), I think Gaelic is a fascinating language that sounds like you have the video on backwards. I imagine I’ll learn a few bits here and there. There is also a channel of all-Gaelic programming, BBC Alba, which occasionally plays SPL football games, so we watch it and I get confused thinking “I should be understanding this, because the video makes sense, but..”

19. It used to bother me that no one had a house here (well apart from D’s mother) and all lived in tenement buildings with rowdy neighbours, but now we’re on the ground floor with our own outdoor space in a quiet building, it’s kinda nice. I still call it “the house” (or “Featherhall”!) but that’s because I’ve never been fond of the term “flat”, and it really is a nice space. Just big enough for us to try and keep clean 80% of the time.

20. My Scotsman. He is surely the best thing to come out of Edinburgh since 1983.


PS. Weekly photo post to come when I can edit it. Photo placements are tricky from a phone app!



Not doing the resolutions thing, because well, they always fail.  Last year’s “my amazing life” post was fun and I’ve managed to stick to most of it. To put it in writing for the year:

The Awesomeness that is 2012 means:

– Getting up earlier, having breakfast/coffee, getting to work earlier. Yes, this means going to bed earlier! I’m not 21 anymore!
– Planning my wardrobe better and taking more care with my hair.
– Using my new beautiful jewellery box to keep everything together..
– …and buying some jewellery!
– Making more effort to get out and into Edinburgh.
– Making more effort to use Soundcloud to record drafts and clips for the music site.
– Positivity. Not letting old regrets linger. Letting go.
– More me time to read, reflect and study Torah.
– Working out more and being more conscious of what I eat and drink.
– Writing and updating this blog more!  If depression stops me writing, then well, I need to write about my depression.
– Continuing to be supportive and loving of my man, family and friends. People are so important.

I hope you had an awesome start to 2012, everyone. I’ll post our top film lists for 2011 tomorrow when Dave is home from football.

Too many posts already!


Things that make me happy today


1. Finishing up my essay on time.
2. Being another .5kg down!
3. Paying only $3 for parking.
4. My new camera! Fujifilm Z10FD. Bought at $219 as it was ex-service (but barely even touched), and returned with the wrong manual.
5. Dropping my Rarotonga underwater films in finally.
7. My course folder being returned! In my letterbox today. My pretty, pretty black leather folder.
7. Researching tattoo ideas.
8. The adorable little Muslim girl on the Vespa scooter following me home.
9. Dave.
10. Making lemonade. My last week or two weren’t so great, but this one is going to be better. And after a gift of a bag of lemons, it’s lovely to now make lemonade, both literally and figuratively. Tasty, too.