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How bout a bit of positivity around here? And a bit of an update to get the ball rolling on blogging again.

Reading:¬† I have probably said this before, but I like to re-read the same books over and over, usually. However, I’m reading a great book recommended by Jolie, called¬†When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron. Seems apt.

Thinking about: ¬†Everything. Do you ever feel like your brain is trying to digest everything in life at once? That’s what it feels like right now. Our first goal is to get the house on the market, and then try and tackle other things¬†going on. ¬†Work is still kinda insane, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. ¬†I think the relief when everything comes together later in the year will just be immense. I’ll be writing 2016 down as a tough year that hopefully helped us to achieve some great things.

 

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Listening to: ¬†I’ve got a playlist right now of about 25 songs¬†that I’ve just had on shuffle constantly. I’ve recently got into¬†CHVRCHES and¬†Broods thanks to Chris, and I’m really into Rihanna’s¬†Sledgehammer, the track from the new Star Trek film. ¬†Also still really loving Joy Williams and Vanessa Carlton’s latest albums – playing them a lot.

Watching: ¬†We’ve caught up with a lot of shows/they’re on hiatus, so we’ve been watching a lot of¬†It’s Always Sunny¬†in Philadelphia and I’ve started¬†Stranger Things and will need to start it again so Dave can see it. It’s like Twin Peaks meets E.T. with a side of horror and worth a shot.

Trying: ¬†To let go of things. ¬†Nothing is set in stone in any aspect of my life right now, and that’s one of my biggest issues. It all just feels a bit out of my control. The uncertainty, the not knowing.. it’s a killer. I am super sad to be leaving Scotland at some stage, but at the same time, being home is going to give me a sense of calm, I think.

Loving: ¬†Sorting my house to sell has actually been quite cathartic. I’m finding so much crap I’d forgotten about, and getting rid of so much clutter. It’s good for the soul.

 

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Celebrating: ¬†We’ve got so much coming up over the next few months. We’ve got a wedding this weekend, a visit to some of my mother’s family the following weekend, then August a wedding in Aberdeen, then September will bring the show I’m involved in, and other fun things, such as…

Making me happy: ¬†I’ve planned a great trip for myself in September, which will be my last trip to London, and my last travels on my own for a while, I imagine (I do enjoy travelling solo, but I miss D). ¬†I’ve got TCGTE in Edinburgh on the Wednesday, then on the Thursday I go down to London and stay in Stevenage for the night to go to FriendsFest (yes, I am a big nerd). Then Friday and Saturday nights I’m in London proper for the London TCGTE shows, then back up on Sunday. ¬†I was always going down for Complete Guide, but now I’ve tacked on FriendsFest, it’s a bonus.

Anyway. How are you?

 

xxx

swhite

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Meh.

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D and I are quite fond of the word ‘meh’.¬† It encompasses this feeling of ennui; of just not caring and not feeling really interested in the world.¬† We use it often, and have a rule – if one of us is meh, the other is not allowed to be, or has to do their best to be the peppy one and try and cheer the other up.

 

 

Today, I am meh. I am tired, bored, uninterested in everything around me.¬† The only thing I want to do is be at home in bed. Not at work trying to think hard about processes.¬† I’m also almost on the brink of tears and I don’t really have a good reason for it. Just one of those days, I suppose.

 

 

I’m also kinda in this phase of taking more selfies than normal, almost in a way of trying to like what I see a bit more? I’m still so unenthused about how I look, even though finally fixing/removing the green from my hair has made me feel a lot better. It’s growing again…

 

 

We’ve had some lovely days lately, though.¬† Thursday was our 6th anniversary so we had dinner at Chaophraya, a lovely Thai place with a view of the castle (if you book for that, we sadly didn’t! next time!). Saturday we had a lazy morning before visiting family, lunch at home, then out to D’s cricket club for a ceilidh.¬† Sunday I had rehearsals, then we were out for dinner & froyo with good friends Mark and Helen. I wish all weekends involved dinners out with friends – we need to buy more vouchers and go out more.

 

 

I’ve also started 100 Happy Days today.¬† Part of it was spurred by this unhappiness inside me, but it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, and I had been planning to start it when I had 100 days until my birthday. Of course, I forgot and had to be reminded by someone mentioning on Twitter. I shall be posting a bit of it here, but mostly on instagram, as always.¬† Froyo is one of those things to be happy for, in general. Thankful for froyo.

 

 

I’m also counting down the days until April as not only is my 30th birthday coming, but we are going home to NZ to celebrate it and my Dad’s 60th. We’ll get to see family and friends and celebrate our engagement, and after we arrive, I’ll finally have a payday where the pay isn’t all spoken for (I’m renewing my visa to stay in the UK at the end of this month and yikes, it’s nae cheap).

Hope you’re all feeling a lot less meh than me today.¬† Write soon.

 

 

…xxx

siggrey

Losses and obsessions

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Poor France. Silly Zidane.

Now the majority of you won’t care about the football. But Italy claimed the 2006 title this morning, eventually triumphing over France on penalty shootouts 5-3.

France’s star player (also on his last international game) managed to get himself red-carded by headbutting another player’s chest. Oops. Would France have won the shootouts with Zidane? possibly. Lots of men crying all round, though. Ahhh, the Europeans.

In other news, my fatigue may not be fatigue. Oh joy. I will let you know later, but I am off to the doctor this afternoon with some worrying symptoms. Don’t stress, I’ll do that for you.

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I’ll leave you now with an entertaining phone conversation from last night:

CEILIDH
I’ve figured out your obsessions.

KAT
My obsessions?

CEILIDH
Your television obsessions, in particular.

KAT
Oh yeah?

CEILIDH
You know why you love Will and Grace?

KAT
Um, it’s funny?

CEILIDH
No. You’re Grace.

KAT
How am I Grace?

CEILIDH
You’re Grace. X Files?

KAT
Amazing show.

CEILIDH
You’re Scully.

KAT
How can I be Grace and Scully?

CEILIDH
Gilmore Girls?

KAT
I’m Lorelai?

CEILIDH
Bingo. La Femme Nikita?

KAT
Let me guess, I’m Nikita.

CEILIDH
Now you’re getting it. Do you see the underlying narcissism here?

KAT
Bah. What about Mad About You?

CEILIDH
You’re Jamie! Or Lisa. I can’t decide.

KAT
Scrubs? Don’t say I’m Elliot.

CEILIDH
No, you’re not Elliot.

KAT
Thanks.

CEILIDH
You’re Jordan.

KAT
Hey! I am not. She’s scary.

CEILIDH
After a few drinks, you’re scary.

KAT
Whatever. That 70’s show?

CEILIDH
Umm… you’re Donna. Minus the redness.

KAT
The “redness”?

CEILIDH
Oh and you’re half her height.

KAT
Hanging up now.

CEILIDH
You can’t hang up! I’m calling from Scotland!

KAT
You use that excuse every time to call and badger me. It drives me crazy. You make me want to clean things.

CEILIDH
Okay, okay, I take it back. [pause] You are Elliot.

First big laugh I’ve had in ages.

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KAT
Is this your invoice?

B
Yeah.

I turn to leave.

B
(looking at my back, my shirt is sheer) Hey, is that a tattoo?

KAT
Huh? No, I don’t have any tattoos.

B
Really? You seem like one of those tattoos girls.

KAT
“One of those tattoos girls?” ..Ok..?

B
You don’t want one?

KAT
Well maybe sometime, but not yet.

B
No big rose on your breast?

KAT
Ha.

Later today passing back by..

KAT
Why am I one of those “tattoo” girls?

B
I dunno. You just look like one of those tattoo girls. You seem like you’d have a tattoo on your butt or something.

KAT
On my butt? I look like a “girl who has a tattoo on her butt”? what, like a nice girl with a dodgy butt tattoo?

B
(laughs) Yeah. No really. You ever been to Mexico?

KAT
Mexico? (laughs) No. I wanted to, though.

B
Well that’s what I mean..

KAT
What, that I’m the kind of girl who’s nice but goes to Tijuana and does something stupid?

B
(laughs) Well yeah.

KAT
(laughing) Thanks, buddy.

Crazy texans.