D and I are quite fond of the word ‘meh’. It encompasses this feeling of ennui; of just not caring and not feeling really interested in the world. We use it often, and have a rule – if one of us is meh, the other is not allowed to be, or has to do their best to be the peppy one and try and cheer the other up.
Today, I am meh. I am tired, bored, uninterested in everything around me. The only thing I want to do is be at home in bed. Not at work trying to think hard about processes. I’m also almost on the brink of tears and I don’t really have a good reason for it. Just one of those days, I suppose.
I’m also kinda in this phase of taking more selfies than normal, almost in a way of trying to like what I see a bit more? I’m still so unenthused about how I look, even though finally fixing/removing the green from my hair has made me feel a lot better. It’s growing again…
We’ve had some lovely days lately, though. Thursday was our 6th anniversary so we had dinner at Chaophraya, a lovely Thai place with a view of the castle (if you book for that, we sadly didn’t! next time!). Saturday we had a lazy morning before visiting family, lunch at home, then out to D’s cricket club for a ceilidh. Sunday I had rehearsals, then we were out for dinner & froyo with good friends Mark and Helen. I wish all weekends involved dinners out with friends – we need to buy more vouchers and go out more.
I’ve also started 100 Happy Days today. Part of it was spurred by this unhappiness inside me, but it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, and I had been planning to start it when I had 100 days until my birthday. Of course, I forgot and had to be reminded by someone mentioning on Twitter. I shall be posting a bit of it here, but mostly on instagram, as always. Froyo is one of those things to be happy for, in general. Thankful for froyo.
I’m also counting down the days until April as not only is my 30th birthday coming, but we are going home to NZ to celebrate it and my Dad’s 60th. We’ll get to see family and friends and celebrate our engagement, and after we arrive, I’ll finally have a payday where the pay isn’t all spoken for (I’m renewing my visa to stay in the UK at the end of this month and yikes, it’s nae cheap).
Hope you’re all feeling a lot less meh than me today. Write soon.